A little party never killed nobody

Hey guys!

So this week has been a tad on the boring side, just doing the school thing. I think I've pulled a muscle in my stomach because I've been so ridiculously sore from my ribs to my belly button that it keeps me awake at night. I can't even call it sore it feels like I'm being stabbed in gut repeatedly. So I'm going to try to head back to the gym today after taking two days off, because I seriously need to go for a run. But hey I said I was starting at 153.7 (I think?) I'm now solidly at 149.3 so I'm happy with that, gotta keep those results coming!

Tuesday night I went to see the Canadiens play with my favourite twins. They're turning 19 on Monday so this was like my birthday gift to them, a winning game against the Carolina Hurricanes.

Perks of living in Montreal pretty much everyone loves the Habs, especially the guys. See male on left, my new love hate hockey buddy. Love because we love the same team, hate because he is constantly making fun of my favourite player. I mean come on Brier isn't that bad!! He even scored last night against the Bruins, and yes I took every opportunity to text said hater, and have a "ha ha!" Moment.

Hopefully I can carry the tradition of taking them to hockey every year for their birthday cause it was fun! 

Tonigh I'm headed out to a 1920s party. It's called the "Fuck Prohabition party". I have everything I need but shoes and a head band. Biggest struggle of all: my shoes are all black and my dress is light pink. I'll go on my search later today hopefully I'll find something cheap and pretty. There's a pair of shoes at forever 21 that could work but paying 40 dollars for cheap shoes doesn't sound too great.  Pictures to come!! Here's to bringing out my inner Gatsby.

In true Gatsby style, and because the soundtrack to the Great Gatsby is my favourite album. 

Song of the Post: 100 dollar bill - Jay Z 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hAESe4Dc0HY

Good night, good morning, good afternoon but talk to you soon. 

Igloofest 2014!

Hey guys!!

Ah I love Montreal in the winter! I mean when it's warmer than -40 it's a pretty good time. Well Montreal is always a good time I've found, but I had one hell of a time last night! Me and two of my friends ventured down to Vieux Port (old port), and went to Igloofest! Nothing like a nice outdoor rave to heighten your sprits right? http://www.igloofest.ca/

Igloofest is this massive rave that happens 4 weekends in a row here in good old mtl, from Thrusday-Saturday it is a huge party! It's also nice that it's a 18+ event, so you never have to guess if that guys is just an older looking 15 year old (very common problem here). 

Aside from the piles and piles of people, being outside at night and dancing while sipping back your alcoholic beverage of choice is really really fun! 

So after some great #mtlmoments I will defiantly be going back, hopefully before this years event is over. And I'm now also a proud owner of the offical Igloofest Beanie, the hats I've been seeing all over town and wishing I had one. I gotta say there's nothing like being a student in Montreal, so many amazing things! All the time!! 

Song of the post : Alive- Krewella
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J-gYJBsln-w
Nothing like a good part song!

 So after my crazy night, that included meeting the cutest boy ! More on that at a later date if anything happens that is. Sunday is just going to be catching up on school reading for the week, and going to my yoga class later tonight! Gotta get that fitness on! 

Have a wonderful couple of days my loves. Good night, good morning, good after noon, but talk to you soon!

Love, Kate 

The F word!

Hey guys! 

So it's Wednesday, and Wednesdays are usually boring posts so I have three things in mind for this post. Healthy lifestyle, philosophy, and the f word(not the one you might think). I read some where that in order to make your blog compelling you need pictures, links, and not to be neutral. So I'm no longer Switzerland, I think. 

So first health. It's such a bullshit saying "new year, new me" but guys I'm sorry I'm kind of starting to feel that. With the shit I was dealing with at the beginning of the month, I was a lot harder on my appearance than I normally am. So for the past week and a half I've been making changes. eating clean; check! Working out: check! I'm actually using my gym membership this semester, and I love it! I also have a yoga class on Sunday evenings so it's great!! My goal is 15 pounds in 12 weeks. 12 weeks from now will be bringing me into the first weeks of May. It's not so much the number for me as it is how I feel, and how I think I look. So here is the big ugly number. I'm starting at 153.5 (cringe! Cringe!!) wish me luck. My poor butt is sore from the start up of working out again, but it'll be worth it.

Second, I want to touch on two things from school today. My professor is pretty cool, and famous apparently you can google him: Andrea Falcon. The first being just simply a quote from my philosophy class. We've been studying Bertrand Russell, and through reading his novel, The Problems of Philosophy I've stumbled upon some great quotes. Now my first week I thought it all sounded completely crazy. We were studying Decartes and I was ready to give up. But this makes sense to me. Give it some thought.

 

"Philosophy, if it cannot answer so many questions as we could wish, has at least the power of asking questions which increase the interest of the world, and show the strangeness and wonder lying just below the surface even in the commonest things of daily life." 

Bertrand Russell (1872-1970) 

  

Ok! So lastly I want to address the dreaded F word. Not that one, the other one, Feminism. (Ew, run! Run as fast as you can!) But really it Femism was brought up today in one of my literature classes. Now in school I'm pretty quiet, I keep to myself, something about being one of 30,000 under grads is just completely great with me. I never raise my hand, not because I don't have anything to say, mostly because I'm just shy in front of 80-200 of my classmates I have never met before. 

But I want to explain my view of Femism. But before I can do that I have to note the fact that most people don't actually know what the word means. As defined by Oxford Dictonary, Femism: the advocacy of women’s rights on the ground of the equality of the sexes. Ok now that were clear, if not here's the link to the oxford site ( http://www.oxforddictionaries.com/definition/english/feminism?q=feminism ).

Okay so I'm not about to go all "fema-nazi" on you. (My favourite internet coined term). But I struggle to actually call myself a feminist because of the stigma attached to the word. Forgetting the feminist extremists, I would like to say that yes I am a feminist. I believe in the equality for all sexes. I believe that the mold of what a "woman should be" and what a "man should be" are bullshit. I think that gender roles are disgusting and that it's disgusting how much it stil exists. For crying out loud, it's 2014 and people are still freaked out about male nurses, and female CEOs. That is my biggest problem with society is the gender roles. I also hate that women aren't allowed to get mad with out a man saying "it's her time of the month" please for the love of god, shut up. My view on Femism isn't all that shocking or different, I would love to see in my life time for women and men to be on an equal playing field, not just in the work place but in every day life. I feel like it's coming. Let's hope people. The next links are some of my favourite recent feminism posts. The second is on a topic I will get to at a later date, but still a good one anyway. 

http://www.upworthy.com/oh-snap-cate-blanchett-asks-e-why-they-filmed-her-like-that-but-not-the-men-9?c=ufb1

http://www.upworthy.com/dont-ask-hillary-clinton-about-abortion-if-you-cant-handle-her-answer?c=ufb4

http://www.upworthy.com/the-struggles-of-being-a-woman-in-a-male-dominated-field-summed-up-in-a-short-comic-re2-3b?c=ufb1

http://www.upworthy.com/sexual-objectification-what-it-is-why-its-damaging-and-how-we-change-it-11111111112222222228?c=ufb1

If you couldn't tell, upworthy is one of my favourite sites. 

Good night, good morning, good afternoon, but talk to you soon.

Love, Kate

Live music! Oh yes!

Hey guys!

So through my sickness I have come out alive! Thank god, I was getting really sick or being sick. What would life be like if I didn't get sick at the beginning of every semester? It would be wrong, of course. 

Last night I showed my embarrassing side and went to the Cody Simpson concert here in MTL. Being one of the oldest ones there aside from the moms, I got my drunk on and had a great time. Yes I actually had fun at Cody Simpson, maybe it's the blonde hair or the Aussie accent but man I love me some Cody Simpson. Or if I had twitter #noshame ok maybe a little shame. He was ridiculously good! I haven't been to a concert in a really really long time, since August actually (seriously I hate this broke student thing). But one thing about me is that I live for live music. 

And the opening act!! Plugin Stereo, super super great he wrote my favorite song Truly Madly Deeply, not the 90s one the newer song performed by One Direction. Super nice and really cute I got to talk to him in between sets and it was pretty great. 

So that was my exciting night. And now my first yoga class is upon me later tonight. Not going to lie I'm very nervous! I haven't done yoga in nearly a year it's probably going to be hard but I guess the best way to get back in is head first. I've been trying my hardest to take care of myself, eating clean and working out daily. I'm really sick of feeling disgusted when I look in the mirror so it's time to make a change. 

Song of the post 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RwD4eJGxPc4

Oh Darling- Plugin Stereo (the lovely man I met last night) 

Good night, good morning, good afternoon, but talk to you soon!

Love, Kate

Objectification

Hey guys

I've been wondering for a lot of the day what I was going to post about because I've spend the last couple days couped up in my apartment with the flu. And then I watched a video. 

If you don't know who Laci Green is, she's worth looking up on YouTube. Her most recent video is on objectifying women, in the media but also in real life. This video made me take a step back and look at even the text that I had just sent one of my bestfriends. Laci Green has made me question things before but this one is really big. Here's the link to the video : http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=u_4dPB9MVS8&desktop_uri=%2Fwatch%3Fv%3Du_4dPB9MVS8

I think my biggest issue is how much I can identify with this video. That my personal issues with my body stem from the fact that I have spent my entire life being shown how to impress men, and what they find desirable. I've tried to mold myself into this thing that men will want and if I feel like I've failed myself I feel horrible for days after. My life has been about dressing, acting, and talking to men how I think they want. And you know what? I've never actually felt good enough.

Take for example my current love interest. I don't send him a snap chat if I don't feel like I look good enough, because even though he's seen me look worse before, the fact that now he's intrested in me changes how I want him to see me. I don't want him to see me when I'm sick and have no colour in my face. It's actually kind of disgusting because I see how much these things have controlled my life. My current guy also, I feel like my need to impress him in so high that if it doesn't work out it must have been something i did. Yeah I know it sound absurd but it really is true. 

Ladies if you look at your love life, when you're first dating someone, or talking to some one have your ever subconiously tweaked yourself to what you feel is more desirable. Taken up more of an interest in sports, wore a certain colour, or even just some more make up? When I do this it's to impress and I never catch myself until after the fact. That was until I did start catching myself. About a year ago I had to step back and say "I really don't give a shit about that sport, or video games" did it change my life? No. But it was the start of the realization that this video made go full circle.

Is this sudden realization going to make me break things off with this boy that I now know night not want my best interest? No I can't be that quick to judge. But I can defiantly be more cautious than I already am about relationships, because objectifying is seriously a problem. Pay attention you might see it in your every day lives, no matter how big or small it is. No men don't disgust me more of society, and a certain population of me. 

Leave you thoughts in the comments below!

Until next time,  

Love, Kate 

Living the Montreal life

Hey guys!

So how have you been recently? My life is falling back into place ever so quickly and that makes me so so happy. Last night some of my friends from Ontario were in town so I took them out to show them what living in Montreal is really like. For the first time I stumbled home, literally stumbled my way into my appartment and made a bee line for my bed. I didn't actually get home until almost 4 am. But thank god for 24/7 A&W, my savour. Drunk food is something I wish I had discovered sooner, seeing as a nice greasy Motza burger combo at 330 in the morning truly does help your hang over. 

Alas my first 4 day weekend of the semester is coming to a close with me on my couch catching up on everything stored in the DVR. I'm still not sure how I ended up being so lucky that I only have classes 3 days a week, the rest is time for myself, at least until about a month and a half from now when the school shit starts hitting the fan. A full schedule and only 1 exam once again (thank you god) will only mean that March is going to fucking suck with all my final assignments. 

I guess because I haven't read any compelling article recently and the drama that my small town had is fading in to the distance, I can bring now to my blog my passion for books. Right now I'm currently read The Wolf of Wall Street by Jordan Belfort. I'm only about a hundred pages in but holy shit! This book is seriously great I have to keep reminding myself that it's a memoir and not complete fiction, that this guy lived like this about twenty years ago. Crazy, seriously crazy. 

Song of the Post 

Move- Little Mix

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RwD4eJGxPc4

Well guys have a great couple of days! I might need to rearrange my post schedule but I'll try posting more from a mobile browser than my actually computer. Post in the comments below! What are you reading right now?? Any recommendations? 

Goodnight, good morning, good afternoon but talk to you soon.

Love Kate

Life reorganizing itself

Hello all,
I know my posts lately have been pretty brief and full of some hard emotions. This loss, clearly, was very hard on me. I do have some good news, my life is starting to readjust which I am so so thankful for. Dark times feel 100% longer than happy times, and I just can't live like that.

I'm back at school, and holy crap books this semester are ridiculously over priced! Goodbye 500 dollars of hard earned money, it was nice that you took shelter in my bank account for such a short period of time. So with my 14 required texts purchased, and tuition paid, I'm accepting payments now for the "Kate wants to have fun this semester fund". Being a broke student blows, but I have had my moments of brilliance making my few dollars stretch. Maybe Prince Charming is sitting at the next bar I go to waiting to shower me with free alcohol. A girl can hope.

So finally my few words about New Years Eve! NYE 2013 was fun, but the place I went to was full of out-of-towners. You can defiantly separate Americans from Montrealers. Not in a bad way of course. Who am I kidding Montrealers know how to handle their liquor, many others, do not. I guess you could say that comes with our legal drinking age being so low.

SO 2014, be good to me!!! 2013 was pretty great, there no denying that. I worked a full time job, graduated from high school, started university, moved to Montreal, hit up an amazing music festival this summer, and got my license (not in this order). Among countless other small victories in 2013, I really did enjoy the last year. 2014 had a rough start, but I do have hopes that things will be picking up. So far I'm really enjoying my classes and scored Thursdays and Fridays off, yes! Talk to me in a couple months about how I'm loving my classes, I'm hoping I have the same excitement.

2014 has so far brought me a new love interest, and some big big plans for the summer months. Also my spring break trip to Cuba is only 34 days away! I hope you all have had a pleasant first week of 2014, what are you looking forward to this year? Post in the comments below!! I'm also attaching a selfie for the first time, here's my face y'all!

Song of the Post
White Walls - Macklemore
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8PLifPUIuic

Goodnight, good morning, good afternoon, but talk to you soon.
Love, Kate

Dealing with Loss

Hey Guys,
So some of you may know that recently I had a death of someone very close to me. I rushed home as soon as I found out, only being back in Montreal for 2 nights before leaving again. 240 dollars and 6 hours later I was back at home wondering how I found myself back so quickly. I spent the two days before saying goodbye to everyone, to only come back and finding myself having to say bye again.

These past 4 days have taught me a lot about sadness, a deep ache, and loss. Losing Vicki was extremely hard on me. I find myself crying every time I feel like I'm finally starting to feel normal again. For someone who was there watching me grow up, it hurts a lot. Girls from my elementary school that I have drifted away from are suddenly sleeping over at my house again. We're all going out to dinner just like we did five years ago. Loss is a funny thing, it brings people together for the most horrible reasons, yet it shows you that some times years can pass and people can still pick up right where they left off.

Last night I went to see my best friend before he had to go back to school today. We've been best friends for nearly three years and this was the first time he's seen me cry. My tears last night were probably the worst ones I've cried since this whole thing has happened. I truly just want to go back to my life, and to wake up like this was all a terrible night mare. The stress that I've been under because of my new semester and this recent loss has put me over the edge. I've also had friends making me feel guilty because I'm focused on trying to help my friend that just lost his mother, instead of seeing them while I'm unexpectedly home. This whole thing is ridiculously harder than I ever thought it should be. I'm finding myself questioning why people even say the stupid things they do, and it makes me cry that my friends don't understand or try to understand how much this is hurting me. Thank god for my best friend, he's one of the only ones that has grounded me, and showed me that being hurt is okay, and that people that don't see how hard I'm taking this need to go away for a while. I'm truly thankful for my incredible best friend, whom I love dearly and has helped me so much through this horrible time.

I hope by my next post the deep ache inside my chest will have dulled enough that my hurt doesn't consume me. I hope that I can find strength in what has happened.
Kate

New Year's Day 2014

Happy New Year everyone!

As a disclosure I'm trying to be very happy right now, but it's not coming through. For about the past two hours I've been crying because I have received some really horrible news, that is eating me up inside. This morning I got the news that the person I've been closest to for the longest, a childhood best friend, his mom passed away last night. His mom was like a second mother to me. She was there through all the hard things I've had to deal with in the past ten years. I have so many memories that include her, that when I found out my heart shattered.

Loss is hard. I've dealt with a lot of loss in my 18 years on this planet, but I'm certain that so far this is the hardest one. Honestly it feels like a close family member has died, she was always 'mom # 2' to me. That's what she called herself, everything was signed with, 'love mom # 2'. I feel like part of my childhood has left me, a part that I can never reclaim. For the first time I think I know what a true broken heart feels like. It's surreal really. I can't even put my feelings into words because there are no words for this loss. For someone young, 50s, is too young. For someone that watched me grow up, held my hand while I cried, held me up when I got too drunk, taught me how to deal with hurt, and supported me through so many things, it hurts me so much. If I had one more chance to say to her everything I wish I could say I would say this:
Vicki, your role in my growing up has been huge. Through so many heart aches, and happiness you've been there. You helped us all grow, always being the cool mom that we all wanted around. To me, you were my second mom. Since third grade when I clung to Mike with dear life because he was my best friend, you showed me that even though you weren't my biological mom, you had the love and support that my mom had. Even though you were simply Mike's mom, you were my mom too. I was the daughter you never had for a while, and I'm glad that I was. We went through a lot together, and you raised an amazing young man. I will always love you like a parent, and I'm so glad you were a part of my life. Rest in peace, you incredible woman, the world will not be the same without you.

This day is hard for me. I hope you all had a great New Year's Eve, I will discuss mine on a later date. Until next time.

Kate